by Zariah, San Mateo When I look at my life and where I’m heading, I take a step back and pause. I know my life isn’t a hundred percent healthy, but physically I am healthy. Mentally and internally, I am not a hundred percent there. At times, I feel like I am internally fading away in the abyss. The people I associate with and call a relationship at least took a part of me. Every time I would try to make a healthy relationship, a little piece of my compassion for a person would fade away. My mind isn’t always
Continue ReadingMy Spiritual Journey
by Sergio, Santa Cruz My name is Sergio and I’m in here being charged with three felonies and a misdemeanor. I just recently got booked into Juvenile Hall. My trial hasn’t even started but I’ve made my first appearance in court. I’ve been a Christian almost all my life but for a while I started to separate myself from the church and even God. He’s been by my side my whole life, and I just took it for granted. I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life but he’s always been with me. Even now that I pushed myself
Continue ReadingI Will See a Better Future One Day
by Uz, San Francisco One day I will go home. One day I will. One day I will see a better future. One day I will get released. One day I won’t be in jail. I’ve been away for a year and my life has completely changed. I have some friends waiting for me and I have family waiting for me. So, I won’t be all alone. It will be a big transition for me. I’m scared. What if things do not work out? I don’t know. I really can’t see myself going to jail again. The only big thing
Continue ReadingMore Than Just a Teacher
by W, CCWF in Chowchilla, CA The stranger who changed my life was my high school/continuation teacher, Ms. Braver. I was new to the city and was in juvie, but because my parents were still commuting over fifty miles away to work daily, the judge refused to release me without twenty-four hour supervision. My parents talked to my school teacher and she not only agreed to supervise me thirty minutes before school, but until my dad came home each day. This lady was a total stranger to me, and I to her, yet she committed to supervising me so I
Continue ReadingHaters Weigh Me Down
by Angela Zuniga, CCWF in Chowchilla, CA What weighs me down is my haters. Not them personally but their words and beliefs of me. I become so mentally exhausted when I allow their thoughts to become my thoughts. Words are powerful, but going forward I refuse to allow the negativity to consume me. I am beautiful, strong, and smart. I believe in myself and have plenty of people that believe the best of me. Instead of focusing on the few haters, I’ma let them hate. I allow my words, my beliefs, and the thoughts of my friends and support system
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Season’s Greetings to our Beat Within Community
The Beat Within wishes you a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! Thank you for your love and support while we continue to grieve the lossof our beloved founder, David Inocencio. We think perhaps San Quentin News summed it up the best… “Founder of The Beat Within touched countless lives, leaving behind a powerful legacy of service and compassion with his ever present smile and the power of encouragement, legendary advocate for incarcerated youth, David Inocencio died in July after losing a courageous battle with cancer. His service to those impacted by the juvenile and criminal justice systems will live on
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Volume 28.41/42
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Continue ReadingEd Note 28.41/42
A big hello, and a warm welcome to our readers and writers near and far. We’re back with another double issue, celebrating the brilliant testimonies of our incarcerated youth and their allies from across the country. There are few celebrations we’d like to mention, we’ve been honored to begin The Beat Within workshops in Stanislaus County. Led by Marian Martino, the voices of Stanislaus County have been published in a handful of our previous issues, and we welcome them to the TBW family and look forward to sharing their voices. Another huge milestone, The Beat Within celebrates 27 of service!
Continue ReadingI Remember When
by M, Sacramento I remember when I got good grades in school and wanted to do a lot of stuff. I would go to my dad’s and we would go bowling. I slowly started getting bad grades and stopped wanting to go do things. I didn’t want to go to my dads or my grandmas anymore. I actually didn’t even want to be home. My grades slowly started dropping, they went from As and Bs to Cs and Ds. From there they got worse, I was leaving after school and hanging out all day. I wasn’t doing homework, I was
Continue ReadingA Perfect Picture
by BK, Santa Cruz I would take a picture of me and my friend, my little brother and stepdad (AKA Ramon) while the background’s a beautiful sunset with an owl in the background. And aguachile as the food. My fave book is “Charlotte’s Web.” My fave view was being in the mountains and the view was the sun in the middle of the woods and it was yellow, pink. My journey’s crazy. I’d met people I never think I’ll stop talking to. My mom doesn’t really care about anyone, so I just had to learn to not care. My dad
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