Compliments

by T How do I respond to compliments given to me? Hmm, I mean, I am not really fond of compliments nowadays because somewhere deep down inside me, I have a feeling that these compliments aren’t true.  When people tell me that I’m doing good or whatever, I don’t pay it no mind.  I just say, “thanks,” and go about my day.  Because how else am I supposed to take a compliment?   By repaying that same person with a compliment too? Nowadays, that’s something that is hard to do. Because people are deceiving. One minute they say that they

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I Miss My Sister

by R I miss you Lala. Lala is my older sister, we are six years apart. She is my only sibling that has the same mom and dad, so we are really close. He first tattoo was my name and my first tattoo was her name.  The last time I seen my sister was in January before I went on the run. We weren’t really on good terms because she thought I stole something from her, but we are better now. Me and my sister don’t fight a lot, but we have gotten into a few big fights before. We

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The One Thing I Fear the Most

by TL The one thing I fear the most right now while I’m in jail is the Coronavirus messing up court.  I heard that the Governor might shut down all prisons and youth detention facilities in California.    So, I don’t know what that means for kids who haven’t been sentenced yet, like someone such as myself.  I don’t know if I will be able to get out before that happens, or if I will be stuck here until it opens back up.    My entire life, I have been in control of what I can do or what times I can

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A Visit By My Guardian Angel

by Jacob In my cell I’m praying to God that I want to changeTurn around I hear a voice it’s my brother baby JHe tellin’ me stop messing up before it’s too lateHis hand is reaching towards me saying it’ll be okThen I turn around and cry can’t look him in the faceAll I say maybe it’d be different if you was here todayMaybe mom and dad would be together and it wouldn’t be this wayTurn around I tell him to stay don’t leave me in this cageYelling that I’m losin all hope he said you can’t lose faithThen he

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Attachment and Losing Patience

by CP, There are many things in life that are going to be challenging, like losing a family member or breaking a bone.  Or maybe you did something wrong and ended up in jail.  Or traumatizing, painful, indescribable things have happened to you.  It feels dark, like you slowly start losing yourself.  You question yourself like, “why has this happened to me?”  or “are things going to keep getting worse?”    Then, you want to give up, but then there is something inside of you that makes you keep going.  Maybe it’s the fact you weren’t physically broken.  I feel

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Dysfunctional Yet Delightful

by G I grew up with what I consider a very dysfunctional family.  We’re all crazy and have a hard time getting along with each other.  Although, when we do, we’re a delightful group and can joke all day long.   Despite our abilities to get along, everyone in my family is very strong and no matter what we go through, we keep our heads high.  My mother has raised all four of us on her own.   She is the strongest person I know, and her ability to solve any problem amazes me.  She has been through many obstacles

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Mami Te Quiero

by L My mom was never in the picture.  I seen her three times.  First, when I was born.  Second, when my grandpa died, and third, when my sister graduated high school.  She ain’t my mom, though!   My mom aka my aunt said, “A mom is not a woman gave birth to you, it’s the woman who raised you.”  That’s always going to stay with me.  I love her.   It’s going to be hard to spend Mother’s Day here and not with her.  I missed her birthday because I was locked up.  Remember the first time, I got

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Mother’s Day

by Sebastian As Mother’s Day gets closer and closer, it makes me even more excited about getting out so I can go see her. It’s been over two years since I last saw her, and she was crying because I was leaving.   She was crying because she was sad that day. Hopefully, when I see her again, if she’s crying, it’ll be because she’s happy.  My mom has done so much for me. I don’t know how I could ever even begin to repay her for all her love, support, and nourishment. She hasn’t just done a lot for

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Dear Beat, Thoughts on Lockdown

by Jesse Ayers Thanks for the letter and the prompt. I appreciate you reaching out. I’ll do my best to describe what “lockdown” is like for me, in a way that is relatable to anyone.  Being locked down is a lot like being a tree that just got pruned. Trees receive nutrients from the sun through what is called photo-synthesis. When a tree loses its leaves and branches, its roots grow deeper into the soil to soak up nutrients from the earth in order to survive. When the tree’s branches grow back and its leaves return, it is finally rooted

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I Understand Why

by LC I understand why the governor wants everybody at home instead of outside.  This Coronavirus is spreading faster and faster.    A lot of people are taking it as a joke.  They’re still doing what they want to do.  A lot of families are struggling to find food and toilet paper, and cleaning supplies.     People are buying everything they can get their hands on.  The president is giving out Stimulus checks for $1200 plus $500 for every American child.  This is because a lot of people are struggling to work and get hours to be able to pay for the rent.  Only American

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