-K Beats, Santa Cruz County, CA
Home…a place made up of thousands of laughters and tragic things
A place and or someone that attracts your heart to the inevitable
Home is where the love is but to me, it’s where I got broken the most
Heartaches and snakes
Surrounded by fakes
What’s it gonna take to finally rest?
Heads felt cement, blacked out
Almost blew my back out
These are my words of a jit
Trust me I know what it’s like to get hit
Feelin’ sick to my head all the way down to my bones
Just wanna be alone
Hard to put my pain into words
Even though my heart’s broken it’s light as a bird
Why is everything feel like someone’s pushing you down
Surrounded by heavy tricks
Thoughts are heavy bricks
Wanna drown out my thoughts
With drugs and alcohol just for silencing everything
Feeling no pain, kind of like nova cane
Let’s get lost in the music
My fuse is almost through with it
Best friend got shot in the head
Now I feel connected to the dead
How do you stay strong?
When my heart’s shattered and scattered?
It’s beaten and bruised
I got scars upon scars, burns upon burns
To be honest surprised I’m still alive
After I flipped a tiny car
Went straight through glass very far
Where do I belong
If home is where the heart is, then I guess I’ve been lost all along
My pain is deep but I never changed
I’m still sweet like candy cane
My heart takes up space
Trying’ to also beat this case
My hearts all fluttered up
But what’s it gonna take to find the love I need?
I feel stuck in a cage with so much rage
Can’t even have a piece of mind
Wish I could rewind turn back time
Losing sense of control
It’s hurting my broken soul
It feels so cold
Gotta do what I’m told
I’m so scared
Realize maybe I lost everyone who truly cared
Painful past not wanting to look back
I know what’s like to get tossed and crossed like a rag doll
Getting shot at and having to think fast boy
All I saw was black
Damn I’m always getting attacked
Sexually abused and drugged
It’s hurting me love life
Afraid I’m gonna get used too, trust me I know
Pain I’ve cried like sleet hail rain
Homie that supposed to have my back
Never saved me from all that
Especially when I got attacked for that cat
Mom hurt me physically and mentally
Finally get to talk about it lyrically
Dragged me down the stairs whipped till it hurt my back
Damn always getting attacked
Momma supposed to always have my back
Straight up tryna put my heart in a box
Make it hard as a rock
Don’t need any more traumatic pain
I didn’t know I’ve been searching for something
In my soul that got broken
Maybe I should really stop smoking.
Need to evaluate
Guess I need to meditate
Have so much pain
Need to vent to something
I was in the lion’s den
Writing with family with a magical pen
No, I ain’t no lame, don’t have to prove to nobody
‘Cause I know I’m somebody
Struggling to cope
Tryin’ to hold my hope
Mama’s house was like an inferno
Always wanting to run around and go to town
Heads loud tryin’ to be proud
While flying on a cloud
Am I a part of the rap crowd ‘cause this stuff is loud
Grew up with jits
We always too lit for this stuff
Maybe pain ain’t nothing to a jit
‘Cause we born from pain
Staying in my own lane
Too sweet like candy cane
Tough diamonds are always picked last
Where’s my shiny knight to help take this pain away
Exhausted from staying strong
Tell me where it all went wrong.