How I Feel Right Now

-A, Sacramento

Recently, I have been good until I came back here. But it’s not that bad because I might leave on the sixteenth. I am nervous because I’m gonna have a little one at the end of this month. 

I personally am trying to keep my head up, but I keep getting that feeling that the judge is not gonna let me go home because of my charge. I feel like the juvenile system is not fair all the way because they don’t give us a release date. 

But every day that I am in here and my court date gets closer, I can’t feel nothing but hopelessness, like they’re not going to let me go home back to my family because of some stupid, minor mistakes that I have made. I only feel better when I get to talk to my family in the phone, even though I miss them so much and I’m starting to get homesick. 

          But I do feel a little bit better ‘cause my dad comes to visit me and he told that everything is good for me to come back to his house. And since I have been going to counseling while in here, I have better chances of getting out my next court date. 

But even though I don’t know when I’ma leave, I tell myself I’m gonna go home my next court date. They pushed my date back but it’s fine.