by JS, Sonoma
I am not going to lie. Before I answer this question, I want everyone reading to pause and visualize how strong your mind is. Think about if your mind was different who would you be.
I know that if my mind was different, I would have never been in this situation. Young men are being influenced the wrong way. For example, we look for respect if we don’t have role models. But nowadays the way respect comes is from hanging with a respected group, shooting and fighting.
But to be honest when you let your mind convince you that something wrong is right because you’re disrespected, poor, and lonely – that isn’t strong, nor does it make you a man. It’s weakness taking over.
I fell victim to anger and pride. I fell victim to my mind. I was convinced that I am broke. Now I have to apply for a job while I am still in the waiting process, or I get disrespected. And now I have to face or shoot him because I’m not a punk.
I’m going to be really honest – that’s all wrong. My mind was all wrong and I need to do something different. Stop doing things that you know are wrong. I need to change my thought process. A Punk is one who loses the battle with himself and stays in the lost space.
Pick yourself up and learn from losses. It’s time to grow up. Keep your mind in check. You control yourself. You are not your anger, depression, loneliness, poorness, anxiety, fear, resentment, vengeance, or hatred. That is all going to lead to pain and loss. Blessed wishes.