by Michael Mackey, San Quentin, CA
Yes I’ve fallen in love, many different times, and there’s many different kinds of love and different levels of love. In a relationship love does inspire a person to do great things and even bad things as well. Love does take daily work in order for it to stay mostly good.
On another note, my birthday is on Valentine’s Day, which in the past was enjoyable. I’ve had a few upsetting birthdays, a few. To me that four letter word love is something that I truthfully am towards others. I was the kid in kindergarten good at creating artwork, hearts, all kinds of things and giving them all to the other kids, even the ones I didn’t even know. I would mostly give it to the kids I didn’t know, just making someone else happy, made me feel very happy because I came from nothing and I know exactly how that feels. I grew up watching others with the things you want to have or play with or hold, just to have as your own, getting picked on and teased for not having clean clothes or small pants on.
All along all I really wanted was to feel connected to someone, so that’s why I help and give to those who don’t have much or have any support. Making them feel special will last a lifetime. Also you will feel joy that will last a lifetime on your end. That’s pure love for anyone with no strings attached. That’s how I was raised and that’s who I am. That’s the kind of love that a lot of people need to show one another more so nowadays.
That’s the forgotten love that people don’t display toward one another and that’s sad. Don’t get me wrong, people understand love all right. Wham bam thank you mama kind of love. Temporary love and then they move on to the next. Not the spirit at all. That’s not real love. That’s pleasure. Something different. It plays its part in seeking love though.
Don’t get me wrong, the kind of love that I have to offer is deeply rooted and has many levels. It’s a strength and a weakness at the same time, the kind of love that Belle and the Beast shared with everybody in that animated movie, “Beauty and The Beast.” The kind of love that every time I hear her voice, with every epiphany gliding beautifully into place. It was a golden brown voice if the creator of the multi-verse had a voice.
It was a voice that didn’t have any drawback. It wasn’t a voice anyone could use for example, for ordering coal. Coal ordered by this voice would become a diamond fast, and I’m just talking about her voice. I ain’t got to know how she look yet, or anything else for that matter. But I think y’all get the picture though. Love makes you feel like you’re walking on shifting tectonic plates, while playing Rock, Paper Scissors at the same time looking in a mirror.
So love is a game I can’t afford no longer for many reasons. I got my heart broke into the worst way for doing all the right things, but she did more than just break my heart. I gave up on love all together and blew it to smithereens forever, or maybe so.