by JU, San Francisco
If you can use one word to describe who I am right now, I would say I am ready. I am ready to push through whatever I need to. I am ready to do whatever I need to do to get through the next phase of my life. I’m ready to knock the rest of my sentence out, and ultimately, I am ready to get out and be a productive member of society so I can provide for my family. I want to put an end to all the stress I have caused from being locked away from them.
I can honestly say I haven’t always been ready. It wasn’t until I matured and humbled myself in here that I am more open.
Another big thing that changed a lot in my mind was when I lost my case and got sentenced to juvenile life. That’s when I realized that I had to play with the hand I was dealt, no matter if it was fair or not.
At the end of the day, I can’t sit here and cry over spilled milk – I need to push and strive in order to make it out of here alive and sane.