B, Saramento
Looking ahead, I see me in the future. My path not certain yet. I’m either on the block or dead. I don’t know why, that’s the feeling I get often, you feel me. So I just thug it throughout the day.
It do be lookin’ promising, but if that’s what the future holds, I gotta be prepared. Because life is tricky. And death gon’ be easy, but life is very hard. You just gotta, or should, I say me, I gotta find a goal and set my focus on that.
I’m always to worry about that and looking over my shoulder. I mean regardless of the fact, I’m not like most people.
Being in a gang was all I had you feel me Sometimes I wanna do better for myself and the future, but my street life always catches up to me. And I be looking for ways out. It ain’t no shortcuts you feel me. I’m not scared to leave the gang to change myself for the future. I feel like this the only thing I got you feel me. I just don’t know how to change paths and look forward.
But you’re turning you back on the people that had your back and everything. And they gon’ feel like you forgot about them, but in reality, they gon’ come back ten times harder to hurt you.
I been there before. I mean everybody future scary. I just don’t know how to prepare for it, and that’s what you gotta do. You have to leave and never come back. I’m not doing that fo’ sure.
And if I was ever to make it out in the future, I’m bringing everybody with me that had me when I was down, bad. Guess who that is? Nobody. Nobody ever had me. I got it out the mud and ran it by myself.
These peeps don’t care about me. I gotta make it to the future by myself no matter how tough it is, you feel me! And I just gotta keep moving forward and make it. I mean my life already at a turning point.
All my brothers in jail, including me. I got those that passed away not too long ago. Everything I been through, that’s why my future don’t look promising. I never had nobody.
They always ask what you want to be when you grow up. You know what I say? Fireman or a doctor. My dreams ain’t ever coming true. I had to find it on my own you feel me. I grew up around everything you can imagine. All these rainy days, people changed up on me, spoke on me.
I sat it down for a year, never got no mail, no money on the phone. But still, I’m thuggin’. But at the end of the day, it’s my future. It depends on how I look at it, and deal with it. And react to how life responds.
Then that’s what I gotta do. But I just gotta be prepared for myself and other situations you feel me. But at the end of the day, I see my future changing every day. Coming to that mark, it’s either I deal with it, or it’s gon’ deal with me.
But I’m just gon’ live in the moment for now. It’s always cool to enjoy life. It won’t last long, my future is gon’ be cool. But some people future is everything to them. I just gotta react when it’s time to. Peace.