I Am My Worse Enemy

by E, Sacramento

I’m my own worst enemy, simply because I feel like I give up on myself a lot. Like sometimes, I will start to do something and then halfway through it, I’ll just give up on myself and get lazy and lose all my confidence. 

Even not just doing things, but even when I’m in here. I struggle with myself in my own mind and start to think about all the things I’ve done and beat up on myself. And I get down and out a lot. 

I’m also my own worst enemy because I do a lot of things without thinking about the consequences of it in the end. I’ll realize after the fact, that I shouldn’t have done what I did, or even if I know the consequence and repercussions, I’ll convince myself that I won’t get caught. 

So in the end, I end up just hurting myself. Even small things like day to day, I’ll get lazy and not want to get up and workout when I told myself I would. Lately, I try not to be in my own head and be my own worst enemy. 

I make goals and promise myself to complete them. Or at least try my hardest to. In my life, I’ve had a lot of negative thoughts. Like I used to think I was never going to graduate high school, so I stopped going. 

And basically just said forget it. Now I’m trying my hardest to graduate. I’m my own worst enemy because if I’m thinking something is a waste of time, or I can’t do it, I won’t even try. 

But I learned that you have to take risks and try, because you never know. But there’s nothing worse than being your own worst enemy. It’s already bad enough that other people are going to try to tell you that you can’t do it and tear you down. 

But it’s another thing when you’re in your own head, telling yourself you can’t do it, and tearing your own self down. My suggestion to you if you’re one of those people who is in your own head tearing yourself down, is to make goals and do everything in your power to live up to them and don’t care what other people say. 

Plus, you already have enemies and people that are going to tell you that you can’t do it. So don’t make it worse for yourself by adding another enemy of yours. And yes, you may not make your goal and you may fail, but don’t beat yourself up. 

Just shake it off and get back up and try again. Don’t tell yourself you can’t do it. Tell yourself the opposite and say you can do it. And don’t just say it, believe it.