by LWOP “P”, High Desert State Prison in Susanville, CA
Well allow me to extend my profound love and gratitude your way. With that being said straight to the matter at hand! It’s January 23rd, 2021 early in the morning and I just got done bird-bathing. For those that don’t know what it means, it means as it sounds; bathing in the cell, washing up. Filling up the sink with water, and you sit down facing the sink and with a cup you start to you bathe yourself.
Furthermore! I’m not here to talk about a bird bath. However I’m here to talk about living in a cell for the rest of your life! I’m an “L-WOP.” That means a lifer without the possibility of parole! I committed a murder, on top of that 25 to life for a gang enhancements, so they gave me 15 to life for gun enhancements. I’m going to die in prison.
I was 25 years old when I caught my case! I caught this case for the hood. It was broad daylight too. However, I’m not here to brag about what I’m in prison for. Not at all! I’m reaching out to the youth that think prison is not real! Prison is not a game. I’m in High Desert State Prison, a level 4 far away from my family!
Furthermore, I would like to talk about how hard it is for my family to accept the fact I will never come home! The pain that I’ve caused is very selfish.
Let’s talk about how the homies left me to starve and never came through for canteen! They fell off within a few months!
Let’s talk about mail! Nobody writes you or writes back and they treat you like you are already dead! My baby mama left me, as well! Imagine what runs through my mind! I’ve sacrificed my life for what? ‘Cause I wanna show the homies I’m solid? I got heart! Let me tell you something: You can love the game with all your heart but the game won’t love you back. Open your eyes now! Don’t go through what I’m going through, being stuck in prison with no date, no visit, no mail and one phone call a month!
So for you all that claim to be with the shhh. This is what you’re signing up for! Prison is not cool. I did not mention the politics ‘cause you have to be in prison to understand them! I hope I get my point across that prison is not cool.
Don’t throw your lives away for nobody! Chase your dreams, pursue your goals in life! Never let someone tell you otherwise! It’s not too late to turn your situation around! Focus up! Most want to be part of something. Most want to feel accepted. That’s for followers! Don’t be a follower be a leader.
Trust and believe, I know the game brings respect, money, fame, fear, death, jail, but life brings way much more! Don’t be small-minded. Think big! Dream big! Enjoy life! Start a family and travel the world.
You need to explore happiness, love, trust and family. Stay drug free as well! Keep positive company around. Now I’m not the one to preach. However, if I can save some lives by writing this then I will be happy.
Save yourself, enough is enough. Strive for your family, your kids and yourself. I want say thank you to The Beat Within for allowing me to share my inner thoughts and my pain. I’m trying to save lives. You got a bright future ahead and it’s up to you! Don’t play with your life!
I’m as real as they come. I can’t stand the youth being manipulated. It’s deeper than you can imagine. I now will exit as I entered with nothin’ but love and respect in a full fashion to you all!