by KH, Sacramento My temper is like no other because I never could be able to control myself at the right time. I would never be able to speak on my feelings, and when I could, or did, I would still shut down, because I also had a busy mother. I would make it harder on myself by not telling her how I really felt, and that’s a somewhat start as in why. My friends at school were the two girls I grew up with and always felt insecure about myself, because I would play “boy games” as in soccer,
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My Mom, My Aunt, My Grandma
by Cecilia, San Mateo I have three inspiring people in my life, my mom, my aunt, and my grandma. My grandma has always been inspiring to me. When I was little she would tell me all kinds of stories about when she was little. My grandma was raised in Campeche, Mexico. When she was young her mom never allowed her to go to school. She would tell my grandma “la escuela para los ricos” (school is for the rich). My grandma’s older sister was my mom’s biological mother. My grandma had three sisters and a brother. Two of her sisters
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by Richie Angulo, Avenal State Prison Avenal, CA All my life I was the person who struggled accepting my identity. From a very young age I started wearing a mask to hide the real me. This was my way of hiding my feelings, all my hurts, and pains. For a very long time I refused to be transparent. I was afraid of not being accepted, liked, supported, and loved. This was my life for many years, a life of darkness and loneliness, a life that became my normal. Over the yards this began to take a toll on me. I
Continue ReadingThe Truth About Family Values-Moments, Flashes and Treasures
by Julian Melara, Pleasant Valley State Prison Coalinga, CA How can a man who has never had a normal family structure know anything at all about family values? After twenty-two years of being incarcerated, I have painstakingly firsthand knowledge about what it is about family values that is important, simply because I had very little growing up. Admitting that was a hard process for me because we all want to pretend that we come from family that teaches you such good moral values in life, right? Well, I will tell you something that you may not agree with right away,
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We would like to welcome you readers back to another great edition of the one and only The Beat Within. Hard to believe 24 years ago we started this one of a kind publication inside the San Francisco Juvenile Justice Center aka Youth Guidance Center. We, as an organization, have truly come a long way from our initial workshops and that first issue on the death of Tupac Shakur. Happy anniversary to The Beat Within, what an amazing journey we have all been on. Thank you colleagues, friends, readers and writers for playing such an important role in our evolution.
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by JO, Yolo They calling me a monster I know I needa changeAin’t lookin’ for a good job ain’t lookin’ for yo’ praiseNeed to stop doing what I’m doing and start thinkin’ like a manTime to grow up the life I’m living ain’t no gameYou don’t know how much I struggle with thinking different everydayAll this anger, pain, regret, inside me it’s so hard to tameWaking up thinking I’m home but I’m still inside this cageHaving dreams I’m on the outs waking up still in these chainsOnly time I’m happy when I’m sleep in different realities‘Cause I’m in my real
Continue ReadingThoughts on The Beat Topics
by P, San Mateo If I could get rid of any rule or law I would ban life sentences and get rid of the death row. Why? Incarceration is already too hard on a person and the government would rather have convicts rot in prison than rehabilitate individuals. I personally have not been affected by this law, nor do I know someone serving a life sentence. But if this consequence was to be banned, I think many families would be more complete. Just maybe the nepotism of incarceration would cease to exist. I currently reside in Daly City. As you
Continue ReadingDear Young Self
by A, Sacramento You will face a lot of challenges in your life and let me be the first to tell you that life is not easy. So many unfair and things no human deserves will happen to you but I promise you will get through it. You are resilient and you are beautiful inside and out. You are worthy of love and don’t let anyone tell you different. Your journey is going to have a lot of obstacles but you cannot give up, giving up is the easy way out. God gave you this life because he knew you
Continue ReadingNothing Is As Bad As It Seems
by Christopher Walton, Santa Rosa Correctional Institution in Milton, Florida Whenever I hear about someone committing suicide, like most people I imagine, the first question I often ask is what pushed the person to take such a drastic route? What was so bad about his or her life that they felt it would be better to cut it short? The thing I wish I could tell these individuals beforehand is that there’s almost nothing you can experience on this plane of existence that can’t be overcome. Even through issues such as heartbreak, financial ruin, embarrassing episodes, and failure can cause
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