by A, Sacramento
You will face a lot of challenges in your life and let me be the first to tell you that life is not easy. So many unfair and things no human deserves will happen to you but I promise you will get through it. You are resilient and you are beautiful inside and out.
You are worthy of love and don’t let anyone tell you different. Your journey is going to have a lot of obstacles but you cannot give up, giving up is the easy way out. God gave you this life because he knew you could handle it and God doesn’t make mistakes. Your story is one of a kind and one day it will help so many young girls.
Today, I am fifteen years old and sitting in the hall for my third time writing this letter to my younger self. Girl, listen to your mom, she knows what’s best for you and she’s just trying to help. She is the only one who cares if you live or die.
All those “friends” you think you have are not really your friends. All they are going to do is use you and point you in the wrong direction. At the end of the day, mom was the only person there. She was the only person who sent you money when you were hungry and the only person who put money on the phone and visited you.
All those boys you thought you loved and thought loved you ain’t nothing. All they want is sex and money, they’re going to have you sell your body for their benefit and they don’t care how it’s hurting you.
I know it’s going to be hard because you never had dad to show or tell you how a man is supposed to treat you and you never seen mom in a healthy relationship. But one day, you will find that special guy that treats you like a princess and puts your needs above their own.
And don’t spend all your life hating dad, he loves you even though he has an odd way of showing it. He did the best he could and remember he has his own mental illness and demons he fights too. Your mom is crazy too, girl you never had a chance at being normal.
She’s been through a lot as well and is just doing her best to give you everything she never had. You’re going to have very traumatic things happen to you at such a young age but I promise you will get through it and it’s only going to make you into the strong, beautiful, resilient and smart woman God wanted you to be.
Middle school is going to be hard but don’t listen to what all those girls say, you’re never going to see them again. Don’t get wrapped up in all the drama and don’t have your first action be to fight.
It doesn’t solve anything, all it does is get you into more drama with more people and guess what…even after you fight, y’all are still going to hate each other. One last piece of advice is always remember you are not alone. It may feel like you’re all alone in this big world but you’re not.
There are plenty of girls who have been through similar things as you. Trust me, I’ve met and heard their stories. Take every day one step at a time and spread love and smile. You never know who might need to hear some kind words or see a smile. Always treat others how you want to be treated.