Ed Note 25.37/38

Welcome to another fabulous double issue of The Beat Within! This latest issue is full of thoughtful writings and art, including our winning pieces from our recent Visions Of Reform Issue. A big thank you goes out to our partner the NICJR  (National Institute of Criminal Justice Reform) for helping us make this special issue on reform possible.   In this latest issue of The Beat we are showcasing the winning essays and artwork from our youth and adults who submitted work for this special issue. We love the pieces and we hope you do too. A big congratulations to

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The One Person I Trust

by Momma’s Boy, San Francisco My mom was the only person in life that I could trust. She is my everything and she never showed disloyalty. My momma made it to every visit, every court date, and she never missed one phone call. All my life my mom made sure I never wanted anything and I never had to question her about a damn thing because she knew what we had going on. My mom was always one step ahead of me and she knew me more than I even know myself and my mom’s relationship was so tight we

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My Temper Is A Reflection Of My Anger

by KH, Sacramento My temper is like no other because I never could be able to control myself at the right time. I would never be able to speak on my feelings, and when I could, or did, I would still shut down, because I also had a busy mother.  I would make it harder on myself by not telling her how I really felt, and that’s a somewhat start as in why. My friends at school were the two girls I grew up with and always felt insecure about myself, because I would play “boy games” as in soccer,

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My Mom, My Aunt, My Grandma

by Cecilia, San Mateo I have three inspiring people in my life, my mom, my aunt, and my grandma. My grandma has always been inspiring to me. When I was little she would tell me all kinds of stories about when she was little. My grandma was raised in Campeche, Mexico. When she was young her mom never allowed her to go to school. She would tell my grandma “la escuela para los ricos” (school is for the rich). My grandma’s older sister was my mom’s biological mother. My grandma had three sisters and a brother. Two of her sisters

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Shining Light On My Truth

by Richie Angulo, Avenal State Prison Avenal, CA All my life I was the person who struggled accepting my identity. From a very young age I started wearing a mask to hide the real me. This was my way of hiding my feelings, all my hurts, and pains. For a very long time I refused to be transparent. I was afraid of not being accepted, liked, supported, and loved. This was my life for many years, a life of darkness and loneliness, a life that became my normal. Over the yards this began to take a toll on me. I

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The Truth About Family Values-Moments, Flashes and Treasures

by Julian Melara, Pleasant Valley State Prison Coalinga, CA How can a man who has never had a normal family structure know anything at all about family values? After twenty-two years of being incarcerated, I have painstakingly firsthand knowledge about what it is about family values that is important, simply because I had very little growing up. Admitting that was a hard process for me because we all want to pretend that we come from family that teaches you such good moral values in life, right?  Well, I will tell you something that you may not agree with right away,

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Ed Note 25.35/36

We would like to welcome you readers back to another great edition of the one and only The Beat Within. Hard to believe 24 years ago we started this one of a kind publication inside the San Francisco Juvenile Justice Center aka Youth Guidance Center. We, as an organization, have truly come a long way from our initial workshops and that first issue on the death of Tupac Shakur.  Happy anniversary to The Beat Within, what an amazing journey we have all been on. Thank you colleagues, friends, readers and writers for playing such an important role in our evolution.

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Change

by JO, Yolo They calling me a monster I know I needa changeAin’t lookin’ for a good job ain’t lookin’ for yo’ praiseNeed to stop doing what I’m doing and start thinkin’ like a manTime to grow up the life I’m living ain’t no gameYou don’t know how much I struggle with thinking different everydayAll this anger, pain, regret, inside me it’s so hard to tameWaking up thinking I’m home but I’m still inside this cageHaving dreams I’m on the outs waking up still in these chainsOnly time I’m happy when I’m sleep in different realities‘Cause I’m in my real

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