A Slave Who Never Was

by James


You may be able to free write; but I wish I was able to write free 
See the thing about me is I’m just a HUMAN being  
And I really don’t know how I’d do free 
Most because I like things with no fee  
And I don’t know how to let the bad things be 
But I do know when I’m out  
You’ll see me do nothing for clout 
No excuses but I’m going to stay home  
Because outside I’m known to get ruthless 
But inside I still tend to make my own mess –  
I mess up my family but the love I still see from Alyssa and Velli 
They know the true me 
Nickname is Tiny but AMBITION is bigger than he 
Talking small; no, I want it all 
They told me I would fall, but I run when that check calls 
But foolishly I go for easy money CLUELESSLY  
Not knowing what pain I’ll bring to the FAMILY I need.  
“I need to be REAL”, no, you see “real”, I feel like that word is fake 
Because “real” causes people to make mistakes 
“Real” is a word that causes so much hate; 
But KNOWLEDGE – “I need to acknowledge that I need” 
To use my SMARTS more than I abuse my HEART 
To go through with what I need to do 
To not act new when my family needs food 
See me and you, we need but we do not need to TAKE 
To take rubbish from your UGLYNESS or money from your wealthiness 
To stay away from being like you I’d rather be wealthy-less; 
Still I am not broke, I still have FAITH to grope 
I still have LOVE I HOPE but nope 
You tried to take that when you took my FREEDOM;  
But my freedom is only a piece of my KINGDOM up top 
And not the heavens but in the BRAINS of my people  
Who use their BRAVERY to get through PAIN you see  
BEATEN like SLAVERY; but in 2k19 it’s not called slavery  
It’s called the SYSTEM. We try to fight for what’s right,  
Then we do wrong and we’re in the fight for our LIFE 
Life we live, ALLEIGIANCE we give  
To fake un-promised love given to us by our peers 
So we act out, cry and pout, when things don’t go our way 
Well, I’m done crying; TODAY is my CHANGE 
Changing the future so my kids don’t have to be 
The slave who never was 
-James, Las Cruces, New Mexico